Better now than later, when it would be more painful. How accurate that was for this moment, in so many ways. Exhaustion was beginning to wear at her from a combination of too little sleep and too much adrenaline spent, and she guessed that the sun was up by now. It was Christmas, not at all the day for any of this, but it was better now than later.
Turning on the water, she waited a few seconds for it to warm up before holding a palm under the slow, steady stream. The dried blood would be easier to remove if she let it soak up the water first, and there was antibacterial hand soap there next to the faucet for when the water had washed away all but the most stubborn bits.
"I don't know that I know where to start, there's so many things that need saying," she admitted quietly, her voice just above the sound of the running water. "That comment about moving in caught me off guard, and I'm sorry for reacting the way I did. I've thought about it before, I actually like the idea, but I was so afraid in that moment of what it could mean that I let that fear get the better of me."
She started working on the other hand, fingers moving carefully in case there was a bit of embedded glass like Steve had mentioned. "I know you would never just toss me aside and abandon me, I know that, but I'm still so scared at the thought of it. And I just had this terrifying worry of what I would do when you got tired of me if I lived here, because I wouldn't have anywhere to go."
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Date: 2017-01-13 07:04 am (UTC)Turning on the water, she waited a few seconds for it to warm up before holding a palm under the slow, steady stream. The dried blood would be easier to remove if she let it soak up the water first, and there was antibacterial hand soap there next to the faucet for when the water had washed away all but the most stubborn bits.
"I don't know that I know where to start, there's so many things that need saying," she admitted quietly, her voice just above the sound of the running water. "That comment about moving in caught me off guard, and I'm sorry for reacting the way I did. I've thought about it before, I actually like the idea, but I was so afraid in that moment of what it could mean that I let that fear get the better of me."
She started working on the other hand, fingers moving carefully in case there was a bit of embedded glass like Steve had mentioned. "I know you would never just toss me aside and abandon me, I know that, but I'm still so scared at the thought of it. And I just had this terrifying worry of what I would do when you got tired of me if I lived here, because I wouldn't have anywhere to go."