Bucky glanced over at her question, then stalled by glancing down. He was still holding her hand, resting on his thigh, and slowly, experimentally, he loosely laced his fingers through hers. "I'm okay," he said quietly.
He didn't want Marie to think he was burying his feelings, or trying to hide anything, so he elaborated. "I mean, sad, but in that nebulous sorta way, like when you hear about anybody dying and you think 'oh, that's so sad,' but it doesn't really affect you personally? It's not... really real, yet." He shrugged, a little uncomfortable - not with Marie, but just opening up in general. "She'd been sick for a long while. More and more hospital stays, longer each time. She hasn't actually been home in months. So her not bein' here... It hasn't sunk in yet that she's not comin' back."
He took a deep breath, glancing toward Marie, but not quite making eye contact. "Besides. I gotta be strong for Steve. Much as I loved Sarah, she was Steve's whole world." It occurred to him that Steve had Marie to lean on now, as well as him. Which was good, Steve needed all the support he could get even without a death in the family. But it had just been him and Steve for so long, a few hours knowing they had another soulmate wasn't gonna get him to change his habits in that regard.
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Date: 2017-03-04 12:53 am (UTC)He didn't want Marie to think he was burying his feelings, or trying to hide anything, so he elaborated. "I mean, sad, but in that nebulous sorta way, like when you hear about anybody dying and you think 'oh, that's so sad,' but it doesn't really affect you personally? It's not... really real, yet." He shrugged, a little uncomfortable - not with Marie, but just opening up in general. "She'd been sick for a long while. More and more hospital stays, longer each time. She hasn't actually been home in months. So her not bein' here... It hasn't sunk in yet that she's not comin' back."
He took a deep breath, glancing toward Marie, but not quite making eye contact. "Besides. I gotta be strong for Steve. Much as I loved Sarah, she was Steve's whole world." It occurred to him that Steve had Marie to lean on now, as well as him. Which was good, Steve needed all the support he could get even without a death in the family. But it had just been him and Steve for so long, a few hours knowing they had another soulmate wasn't gonna get him to change his habits in that regard.